Well after 6 days of positive tests, I believe I am definately up the duff!!!!! When AF was late I finally started believing it, and then after very convincing BFP's at 4w0d & 4w2d, I don't think there is much denying it! Jason seems to be very excited, but a little cautious - as am I. My history of losses makes the next 8 weeks or so, a very scary prospect for us. I have experienced losses at 5w4d, 6w1d, 8w0d & 10w4d - so until I reach the 12 week mark & we see our little bean, I don't think the stress will really stop!
My symptoms are right up there though, which is giving me some confidence - I've been vomitting 3-4 times a day, since around 13DPO, I'm tired all day, I've been cramping, peeing what feels like every 10 seconds & my back is sore. My boobs seem to be starting to get sore, which is a great thing, because my losses, I haven't had sore boobs.. so come on boobies - get aching!
I rang the midwife I have chosen to do my care, and she was very friendly, and has scheduled me in next Thursday - 22nd October (gosh, my precious Angel-Nephew's b/day!) for my first appointment, and to refer me to the clinic who deal with women who have had recurrent losses. Strangely I am not worried that this may be another ectopic pregnancy - maybe because my pregnancy is going according to plan (ie tests getting darker, AF has stayed away, whereas with my ectopic I got AF when she was due, and hcg was up and down). I am trying to stay positive, to make myself believe this is a sticky little bean. I just hope that is the case!
We should be scheduled for an u/s around 7w, to make sure the baby is in the uterus, and that there is a h/b - so that will be our first big milestone to make it to. Up until now all my early-pregnancy u/s have had sad results, so I'm hoping this pregnancy will be the one where we get a GOOD outcome. This is the first pregnancy that I've really had the father there with me for support, and I think that is making it all a bit easier on me. The thought of that first u/s is still really scary though.
Here is a pic of my BFP from today - the test line came up before the control line (yay) & as dark as (maybe darker) than it as well!
Compared to my BFP at 14DPO / 4w0d
It's an amazing feeling to be pregnant again, and such a novelty to have someone to share it with, who is there because he *wants* to be, and not because it 'seems like the right thing'. I can't wait until we can tell Gaby that she is going to be a big sister, but I have no idea WHEN to tell her. I guess I can tell her when I don't mind everyone else knowing - because Gaby will tell everyone she sees! I am going to TRY and hold out telling, until our first ultrasound, but we'll see what happens!
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